I went to my college orientation Saturday, and we were handed this novel by Elizabeth Kolbert.
At 1st I'm just thinking, gosh, I don't want to read a book about global warming during my last summer as a senior! Anything else!!
So last night I go see the movie "The Happening."  I didn't find it very "good," but ya know.  I remember at the end of the movie a scientist explaining the phenomenon that was "happening," and he said something along the lines of "WE ARE KILLING OUR EARTH! & IT IS RETALIATING!!"  That really creeped me out.  I guess I didn't realize how much people harm the earth.  I myself try to recycle and preserve it, but others don't care anything about it & just litter & take it for granted. 
After watching that movie, I started on the 1st part of Field Notes From A Catastrophe: Man, Nature, and Climate Change.  I guess I'm just wondering has anyone else already read this book? Is it a good read?
Anyway, I hope you all have a great day!

Poison oak, some boyhood bravery.  When a telophone was a tin can on a string. And I fell asleep with you still talking to me, you said you weren't afraid to die. 

In polaroids, you were dressed in women's clothes. Were you made ashamed, why'd you lock them in a drawer? Well, I don't think I ever loved you more.

Then you turned away when you slammed the door, when you stole the car and drove towards Mexico, and you wrote bad checks just to fill your arm, I was young enough I still believed in war.

Well, let the poets cry themselves to sleep, and all their tearful words will turn back into steam.

But me, I'm a single cell on a serpant's tongue. There's a muddy field where a garden was, and I'm glad you got away but I'm still stuck out here. my clothes are soaking wet from your brother's tears.

AND I NEVER THOUGHT THIS LIFE WAS POSSIBLE, YOU'RE THE YELLOW BIRD THAT I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR.

The end of paralysis, I was a statuette. Now I'm drunk as hell on a piano bench, and when i press the keys it all gets reversed.  The sound of loneliness makes me happier..

Everyday, I'm learning more about life.  There have been days when I just hate myself & didn't want to do it anymore, but they have been occuring less and less this year.  I keep thinking about all the other people out there who face worse things everyday, who am I that I should copmlain??
Today is just a snapshot of the photo album of life.  Tomorrow will be a result of how I felt today and how I acted today, so if I am having a bad day, why ruin tomorrow? LIft your head up & keep carrying on. 

I've recently started reading my Bible again, and I don't know why I ever stopped.  It is so inspirational, and I love being Catholic.  I want to be a person who someone looks at and thinks, "I want to be happy like her" or "I want to know God if it makes me feel the way she does." God put us here as His image, and wants us to live that way. 

I guess I'm just rambling now, but life seems to make more sense to me right now, and I keep learning everyday.

 

so last night i watched "The Believer."  I remember buying it at Media Play like, four years ago.  When I first watched it I didn't really like it.. I just remembered it being a crappy version of American History X (gosh, I am in LOVVE with Ed Norton forever because of that movie). 
But last night I watched it again for the first time since that 1st viewing.  I loved it.  I got to watch it by myself and really pay attention to it.  Instead of just day-dreaming during the "intellectual" parts of the movie, I really listened to Ryan's views and motives.  I can see what he was saying about Abraham in the Bible, and though I am a devout Catholic, I can see where he is coming from.  I can understand why he says the things he did and why he is "disgraced" to be called Jewish.  Then the end, gosh, his Hell.. I never really understood it before, but this time it just made me shudder.

Anyway I just really loved that movie and wanted to talk about it.  I recommend it to any body. 

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for me, May brings the end of highschool. i remember thinking at the beginning of the year that it was gonna drag on FOREVER, but now that i look back, these past 4 years went by sooo fast! i remember going going through crushes, marching band & cross country in the hot summer, experiencing my 1st kiss, playing lacrosse in the mud & rain, going to all kinds of concerts! getting in trouble, making distinguished scholar & who's who among american high school students, being asked out by my 1st boyfriend & still going out w/ him today.  boy, time sure does fly.

but now that may is here, this week i have my senior prom, next week is my boyfriend & i's 1 year anniversary, the week after that is the senior's last day of school which is on my 18th birthday! & the week after that is graduation! so i guess, may really brings the end of drama, dependency, childhood.. college will start in the fall, & for me it is like adulthood is starting. here's to may, & all the happiness & change it will bring!

the FAMOUS "yes"!!! i can't wait until i get proposed to! being only 18, of COURSE i plan on marrying my high school crush, but i seriously can't picture my life without him & vice versa.. i just see it happening! i can't wait to be a wife & a mother, a graduate & a nurse.  well i CAN wait, i don't want time to just fly by, but i definately want to say yes to it!




among other things, i find myself always wanting to say yes to god! i try to have an open mind about everything.  i have friends who talk about people, but i just.. don't.  i know He has a plan for me, & i try to keep my mind open.  over the years i've often blamed him for things that i prayed for & didnt get, but now i see it starting to come together, & i love HIM more & more everyday.

i just say yes to LIFE! i've had my ups & downs, even though i'm young.. ive seen things & lived through things i'd like to forget, but these past few months i've completely decided to embrace life! no matter what happens, i'm ready for it. i WILL say yes

this has been just an amazing week, all events leading to senior prom this saturday! today i have to make brandt go to the doctor.. ugh.. but then i get to go to PILATES & YOGA! (the usual highlite of my wednesdays) & i'm going jewelery shopping with my friend emily!
tomorrow i get to see my dad, whom i haven't seen since thanksgiving, friday i get a manacure/pedicure & get to go to brandt's RUGBY game! & then saturday, a quick yoga class before getting ready for prom!

i have just really been feeling great about myself, & i am SO GLAD i became a part of this community :-] i've been reading posts & blogs, questions & reflections, & it just lifts my spirits!

many thanks to everyone for their support here!

oh, i do it all the time! i can't remember a specific time right off the top of my head right now, but i absolutely ADORRRRE music! & if i hear a song that just absolutely touches me, i cry. hah i know, lame.. but i do sometimes

so i started going to yoga classes.. it's frickin amazing! ha even though i suck at it  & am not very flexible.. but practice makes perfect!
i love working out, i love being a vegetarian, i love life!
i think i've changed more these past 2 months than i have in a few years.. & i love it :]
god bless!

   so some of us aren't priveleged of being able to drive @ age 16.. SOME of us have to wait til we're 18.  sucks.. i know, right?
   so it's about that time when i hafta finish up gettin those classes done.. and i go with my LITTLE FRESHMAN COUSIN.. how embarassing! hah.. anyway.. so i get into class & i looked around & saw everyone just mosin around sayin 'why do i hafta be here? i wanna just drive' & i thought to myself, "wow, i would not feel safe w/ these ppl driving w/ me." they are ppl just drawin in their books, & texted, & hey i used to be one of them.  but i think waiting until i was 18 to get my license put a whole new perspective on this privelege.  i feel safer and having more of a better judgement now that i'm 18. 
   so anyway i guess i'm just raving about how stupid freshman seem.. haha
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